2019

...بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

Hi guys, so this is gonna be my very the 1st post ever *cliche*. umm where to start eh? nahhh, feels awkward tho. still valid ke people baru buat blog on 2019? *cried*. but it's never too late to start all over again kan? Before start, lemme introduce myself first. Saya ayu mastura and Iam 27 y/o this year *OMG*, a beautiful wife to Muhammad Zahid Saizul and a housewife. Okay actually saya dah ada blog when i was young dulu dulu tapi for some reason i deleted it. dah lama dah niat nak berblog semula since facebook keep throw me with some memories about my blog so macam meluap luap rasa ni nak ada blog again and again. currently i got one mini blog dekat apps dayre.me tapi i realized yang macam its not convenient since its just can be updated through mobile je. maybe later iam gonna use that dayre untuk on the go update je kot. yeah sebenarnya time nak buat semula blog ni pun i still thinking berjuta kali *over taw* patut tak saya buat? rajin ke nak update panjang berjela? or adakah ni akan jadi the first and the last post? LOL. kita tengok je la jauh mana semangat seorang ayu ni. hah!

Okay now lets talk about main highlight of this post. 2019 a.k.a Twenty-Nineteen. So good bye 2018 as we all needs to move on no matter what. Thank you for another great year that full with joy and happiness. End my 2018 by spending time with the most important people in my life (family, family in-law and sweet husband of course). I do appreciate and thankful to god for whatever and wherever i am today. Alhamdulillah sebab diberikan peluang untuk bernafas lagi. Okay new year ni for many people is a chance to start afresh, to make resolutions and to set new goals. so do i. i gotta few goals or we malay called it azam baru. So apa azam awak awak semua untuk tahun ni? Cerita pasal azam ni sebenarnya terlalu banyak yang kita inginkan. dari sekecil kecil benda sampai la ke something big. Paling penting, i wanna be a better me than yesterday *big time* for myself, and people surround me. always tapi we people isnt purrfect so we keep doing mistake tanpa sedar.

*family photo time*

This early morning out of sudden, i was thinking about my past dari start primary sch, secondary sch and till now 2019. there is so much things that i have done wrong. To those yang saya ada terbuat something sampai they hate me, dont like me, terasa hati, tercalar sikit sikit ke kan. Iam really sorry for whatever things i have done bad to you guys. and i guess adalah few ticers yang saya rasa till now they cant forgive me (admit that iam the naughtiest, stubborn and annoying person alive). To parents, families, friends and strangers too iam really sorry and regret it and yaaa i really mean it this time. Wish that those yang pernah buat silap, terasa hati and sakit hati dengan i akan baca this post and theyll forgive me. Tahun 2019 ni saya nak hidup dengan lebih tenang tanpa dibenci sesiapa. I know life isnt about to please others and forced people to like us but hey its not a good feeling if people hate us. I dont really like being hated and its not awesome at all (ada ke orang happy bila dibenci LOL). so please guys, can you all forgive me? dah 2019 so please no more hatred, and lets keep spreading love <3. can weeeeeeeeee?

Next, lets talk about what is this blog for? Guess it will be more to self update for my own reading *bedtime story*, to remind me my good old days and memories in future later. Somehow, i noticed that iam that kind of person yang obses dengan diri sendiri (well, who doesnt?). like when i update a story on instagram, i can watch it many times all over again and again and again without getting bored. so lol kan? same goes to another soc med jugak. didnt know is thats because i just want to make sure the things that i posted is not offence or hmm i guess nope, clearly its because iam obsessed with myself *weirdo*. Iam gonna put it here on this blog and readable by others to share my happiness. So feel free to come to my blog without feel hesitate. No charge will be incurred LOL.

Anyway, alang alang story pasal azam baru dekat atas tu, saya nak list kan beberapa azam dan perubahan yg saya nak untuk 2019. Bukan apa, mana tahu tersasar dari landasan ke so boleh refer dekat sini and by end of year I boleh analyze mana yg i tak buat lagi dan ketuk kepala sendiri later!

i) Banyakkan memberi daripada menerima. Yes, i sedar banyak kekurangan dari segi ni. I banyak getting daripada giving all this time. so guess dah tiba masa untuk buat perubahan on this. No one has ever become poor by giving quote by Anne Frank ni is good actually. Even dalam Islam, Allah swt akan lebih menambahkan nikmat rezeki seseorang tu bila dia banyak memberi dan bersedekah.

ii) Get fit! yes ni dari dulu i tekankan tapi tula malas dia lagi berganda. selalu berzumba and squat je tu pun on off tak konsisten (ikut suka hati je nak buat tak nak buat).  semangat nak pergi gym dengan swimming ni tinggal angan angan aiyoo. gym dengan swimming pool bawah rumah ni jadi perhiasan je LOL. kalau dulu masa kecik sanggup pergi swimming pool jauh alam siap bayar rm2 setiap jam ahaha. so this time i really kena work for it. how malas sekalipun kena paksa. and ohh one more thing buat plank everynight before sleep for a minute. kalau tak start harini bila lagi kan. hopefully by end of this year i dah ada sixpack LOL. Impian yang takkan pernah tercapai is nak berat 35kg. i always nak kurus even people keep remind me yang i dah cukup kurus. even my BMI category underweight tp i still want that 35kg. againnnnn *weirdo*. get fit ni jugak i nak tingkatkan ketahanan badan i. tak nak dah lembik lembik sikit sikit lenguh sana sini. cukup cukup la dah terlalu manjakan badan selama ni. manjakan badan dengan spa and so on is okay. hehe. eat clean? hmm tu susah sikit sebab food sangat temptation. suka goda goda me. kalau i letak dalam azam 2019 pun benda tu akan fail dulu LOL. its okay, kita balance kan balik dengan exercise tadi okay. tapi tapi sekarang tengah challenge myself dari stop minum air bergas. selalu tu dalam seminggu sure i akan wassap my husband suruh belikan air coke or vanilla coke otw back home dari work. hopefully i can tahan. and yeah, kurangkan gula dan garam dalam makanan too which actually dah lama jgk try control tp tersasar sikit sikit sometimes. fav air i adalah milo and i mampu ratah milo tu just liddat je haihh no good ayu no good. stop that habit please.

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iii) Tidur awal, bangun awal dan mandi awal pagi. Nampak macam benda senang je kan? for you guys yeah maybe, but for me? nahh not that easy. nak nak iam a housewife who stay at home doing nothing yang tak memerlukan i keluar jumpa people tak memerlukan i bersiap. even kalau keluar pergi shopping groceries pun i takkan mandi (padahal rumah dah ada heater pun malas mandi). husband balik je baru mandi tu pun sbb terfikir isteri kena bercantik cantik berhias hias berwangi wangi depan suami. dalam sebulan tu adalah 2 3 kali i tak mandi seharian mandi esoknya *yikesss selekeh perangai ikr*. tapi kalau mood rajin mandi tu datang, i boleh duduk dalam toilet selama yg boleh. tidur awal and bangun awal ni masalah yang tak pernah berkesudahan dari dulu lagi. saya sejenis yang tak boleh tidur petang, kalau tidur petang tu maka tengah malam terkebil kebil mata tak nak tidur. paksalah macam mana pun berjam jam sekalipun baring belum tentu tidur end up tengok movie sampai pagi and lepas husband pergi work baru boleh tidur. rugi sebenarnya bila bangun bangun dah tengahari. you akan rasa waktu yang ada limited sangat and tak puas. tapi tula timing tidur i akan normal dalam 3 ke 4 hari je lepas tu back to kelawar malam malam tak tidur. nak betulkan balik timing tidur tu masyaallah sikit punya payah. kena disiplin kan diri dalam bab ni.

iv) Hafal surah pendek, Al-Kahf, Al-Mulk and few more surah yang dihighlightkan. dunia dah nak dekat akhir zaman ni, cuba untuk mempersiapkan diri dari sekarang menjadi lebih sempurna. solat di awal waktu, bukannya buat combination zuhsar, maghsyak. faham tak what i mean? zuhur lagi 5 minit before asar, and sambung asar terus. sama la maghrib isyak pun huhuu. so pasal keagamaan ni tak nak cakap lebih lebih sebab biar kita kita je tahu.

v) Kurangkan shopping and start saving. i really need to start doing this. duit suami bagi setiap bulan habis macamtu je beli benda merepek. i sejenis suka beli baju, handbag and shoes, beli tapi untuk buat collection je bukan pakai pun. so its kind of pembaziran dekat situ. i have decided lepasni duit husband bagi i wanna use it wisely and tak nak membazir dah.

Okay la cukup dah tu kot untuk first entry. Panjang berjela dah ni (nampaklah semangat tahun baru nya LOL). I have few plans too untuk 2019 but never mind lets just keep it between myself je. Nanti kita cerita sana sini tak jadi pulak. Kita merancang je tapi Allah swt yang berhak menentukan. In shaa Allah, may 2019 be another great year for me and suami and for all of us too. In shaa Allah amin allahuma amin.